But, why does it have to hurt so bad...?

Sometimes things happen. You run out of gas. You stub your toe...really hard!(What?! We've all done it!) You lose your job, money get's tight, you have a bought with sickness, your heart gets broken, your child dies...wait...

Yeah, bad things happen. Horrible things. Things that you don't want to ever imagine, things that make it hard to get out of bed and face another day, things that make you feel like you can't get your head above water, things that make you wonder, ' Is there even a God?! And if there is, WHY is He letting these bad things happen?!"

I can write this with tears streaming down my face because I know loss. In just a short few years we lost my husbands Grandpa, Aunt & Grandma. We lost  2 of my Uncles, Grandpa and Grandma, and we lost our baby. (explained in my blog titled, 'He knows your Name, He sees each tear that falls'/October 2010) 

We where good people! We loved each other! We went to church and served! We where trying to raise our kids right! Why? We never hurt anyone...we don't deserve this...

I can assure you, nobody does. I recently heard a well known minister speaking on this subject, "Why Does God allow suffering" www.harvest.org  and he said three very powerful words that I think sometimes us religious uppety uppers, don't want to say. He said, " I don't know!"

WHAT!?!

You mean God isn't punishing you for being a bad, bad person?! Don't act as if you've never kicked the dog! And He knows what you where thinking when your covetous heart lusted after your neighbors stainless steal appliances( Were all woman here! You know you want some!;) 
But I do know, God has a plan.* He has a plan to use your sufferings if you will allow him. He can make all things beautiful in his time.* He can take your broken heart and piece it back together, ever so gently, making sure he gets every tiny, broken piece and use your once broken heart to change a life. He breathes life into what feels like your heart that has stopped beating. He can hold you in *perfect peace and give you just the strength you need to calm your *anxieties and shush your fears. He can. And He will.

Beautiful Sister, there is a love that reaches down, past our filthy hearts, into our souls, that's says, *" Quiet. Know me." He's there. Even if the pain and questions are overwhelming you to the point where you can't even see through your tears.He's there. He still loves you when your empty words are screaming, "Why?!" And you wish you could just see the answers and know there is a reason. He knows.

He's there and He knows. 

Lay it at the foot of the cross. Come to Jesus. Feel His peace and be wrapped up in His everlasting love and give the pain that is crippling you and the hurt that you are suffering through to him.* He will carry your burden and make your load light.

* "The Lord keep you from all harm - he will watch over your life; the Lord will watch over your coming and going  both now and forevermore" Psalm 121:7-8

* "...So also through Christ our comfort overflows..." 2 Corinthians 1: 6

* " You will keep in perfect peace him whose mind is steadfast, because he trust in you. Trust in the Lord forever, for the Lord, the Lord, is the rock eternal." Isaiah 26:3-4

* " Be still and know that I am God." Psalm 46:10

* "Cast all your anxiety on Him, for He cares for you." 1 Peter 5:7

* " Come to me, all you who are weary and  burdened,  and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest in your souls, for my yoke is easy and my burden is light." Matthew 11: 28-30